Time Sure Does

Its  amazing how quickly one year can go. I recently finished the Happiness Project, and one of Gretchen Rubin's favorite sayings is that the days are long the years are short. Its so amazingly true. How does time skirt by like it does? I can vividly remember a year ago. Early June, I was just back to school. Natalie was just 7 weeks old, Bailey was a terror at 18 months. It was a challenge to get dressed, to eat dinner, forget making dinner. Tonight I found myself vacuuming the stairs without holding a baby. It was carefree and lonely. The things that today seem so challenging I know I will soon miss. Driving to work with two moody babies is extremely stressful for me. But when I ride alone I'm so very lonely. Your children become part of your fabric. The thing I miss the most about being pregnant is not having them with me all the time. I can already sense that as they gradually get older and more independent that is going to be so hard for me, letting them go. Its crazy because we laugh at our own parents and then in a snap it is us that can't be without our children. It must be because they are so completely dependent on you for at least the first year and a half, that you become dependent upon them, as well. My girls are my entertainment, my purpose, my life. I'm sad as I watch them pull away from needing me completely.